Ellie Goulding is joining the long list of celebrities to become pregnant during the pandemic, revealing that she’s expecting her first child with her art dealer husband, Caspar Jopling.
In a new interview, the British singer says she’s been living in the countryside preparing to become a new mother. Goulding is now 30 weeks along and taking the pregnancy cravings—McDonald’s—exhaustion and morning sickness in her stride. The last time she made a major public appearance—at the V&A Museum in August—she was pregnant but “had no idea.”
“That was [around] the time when Caspar and I went away briefly when we were allowed to for our one-year anniversary, and that’s basically when we found out. It was crazy because it was our one-year anniversary. That was not the plan,” Goulding explains.
Goulding adds that the pregnancy came as a shock and because you don’t even show for a while, it took the couple a bit of time to get used to. “The thought of getting pregnant didn’t seem like it could be a reality. Becoming pregnant kind of made me feel human. I want a better word than womanly, [but] — I have curves I’ve never had before. I’m enjoying it. My husband’s enjoying it.”
Despite the unplanned timing of the pregnancy, Goulding says she’s excited to become a mother but admits that it can be a lonely experience expecting a child during ongoing lockdown orders when you’re banned from seeing friends and family. “It wasn’t something I had planned for right now, [and] I knew it was a more solitary journey because of what’s going on,” she explains. “I think that made me keep it very secretive and made me very protective over it.”
“The sickness and tiredness was nothing I’d ever experienced before,” she continues. “I feel like it’s a taboo to talk about pregnancy as being challenging. It’s not always serene and like you’re not always glowing. I’m not saying that every second of this pregnancy has been miserable. It’s not always going to be easy. [But] I have a newfound respect for any woman who has children.”
Goulding’s book, Fitter. Calmer. Stronger., which comes out in September, is centred around having a balanced, healthy fitness routine, something which is usually one of Goulding’s top priorities. But even she admits that pregnancy changes everything: as she got further into her first trimester, she says, “I started having a completely different body and different energy, I couldn’t deal with everything! I actually went from being smug about how healthy my salads were and my breakfasts and eating nuts and seeds, and then all I wanted was McDonalds.”
“Whatever this baby did when it took over my body was like, Hell no — I do not want broccoli, spinach, collards! I just wanted sugar and carbs.” Relatable—pregnant or not.