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In a new documentary, 30-year-old model-and-actress Cara Delevingne has opened up about coming to terms with her identity growing up, saying she thought she was ‘abnormal’ when she was younger.
Delevingne, who identifies as queer and gender-fluid, says she felt so much shame and confusion about her sexuality and gender that she resorted to suicidal thoughts. “I couldn’t talk to anyone about it. I had a lot of internalised homophobia and shame. I thought that I was abnormal,” she said during her new six-part BBC documentary Planet Sex with Cara Delevingne.
“I thought about ending my life, like I had multiple times, and I’m so glad I didn’t because if I can help any other kid that means the world to me,” she continued. “It means the world to that little queer kid I was. Or I am.”
Delevingne added that today she’s “happier’ than she’s ‘ever been”, and wants to help young people who may be struggling in the same way she once was.
“I feel really, really proud of what we created. I know I shouldn’t feel shame but I truly believe there are souls like me all over the world.”
Delevingne added that though she’s previously identified as bisexual, then pansexual, she now prefers the umbrella term of queer.
“Sexuality is definitely a spectrum, and I feel like mine wavers,” she explained. “But I’m definitely more on the side of women. I like having sex with men, I just don’t date them.”
“I am a “she” right now,” Delevingne added. “But I also like dressing up as a man and being a “he”. You don’t have to put so much pressure on yourself about what you are, who you are.”
“Whether it’s masculine and feminine, it’s just who I am… The constructs and binaries that are given are stupid,” she continued. “I’m proud to be a woman, but I don’t have to sit in a box. I’m definitely genderfluid. I love playing with what we’ve been given as those gender constructs. Being super femme, being super masc, mixing it all up in one big cauldron.”
In Planet Sex with Cara Delevingne, Delevingne explores questions about human sexuality, including the popularity of pornography, sex appeal and even going so far as to donate an orgasm in the name of science.
