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In a new interview with Porter magazine, Manchester By The Sea actress opens up about her life as a single mother and the prospect of dating. “I feel really sensitive about it and certainly did not expect to still be dating at 36 with an 11-year-old. This is not what I imagined,” she said.

“I’m like a cat, I’m a very domestic creature. I just want to stay home and take care of people. But I’m also happy with myself and just because I might have a desire to be with someone…that won’t lead me to marry the wrong person.”

It was her long-time friend, fellow actress Busy Phillips, who actually brought Williams to the reality that she’s now in a “blackout zone” where everybody is partnered up and she now has to wait for those to get divorced. As daunting as that at times comical idea may be, the thought of her daughter, Matilda, growing up without her father Heath Ledger is one that still doesn’t sit right with Williams. “In all honesty, for pretty much everything else, I feel like I’m a believer in not fighting circumstances, accepting where you are and where you’ve been. In pretty much all senses but one, I would be able to go totally down that line of thinking were it not for Matilda not having her dad. You know, that’s just something that doesn’t…I mean, it just won’t ever be right.”

“I watched [Matilda] warm in the sun, in her swimsuit, get on her bicycle and smile and wave as she rode off to go meet her friends,” she said. “I went back into the house and sobbed because of this incredibly simple moment ― common everyday happiness. I really felt like in that moment, like wow, we’ve done it. Not only are we OK, she’s happy. Life has brought us to a place that’s not just surviving, but thriving.”

Matilda was just two-years-old when her father passed away from an accidental overdose in 2008.