For many, the holiday season is a time of joy, but it can also be an incredibly difficult time for others. Bebe Rexha has detailed her struggles to enjoy the festive season on TikTok, in a new video that she dubbed an “honest update” on how she’s feeling.
The star, who has long been lauded as a body positivity advocate thanks to her candid social media posts, told fans she hadn’t been feeling her best lately due to difficulties with body image.
“So it is the holidays and I know we’re all supposed to be, like, merry and like, ‘Yay, it’s the holidays,’ which I am…ish,” Rexha said in the emotional video. “I think I am the heaviest I have ever been. I weighed myself just now and I don’t feel comfortable sharing the weight because I feel embarrassed.”
The Me, Myself & I singer began to tear up as she continued. “I just feel disgusting, you know, like in my own body. I haven’t been posting as much because I don’t feel good in my skin,” Rexha said. “And when I don’t feel good, I don’t want to post and that’s really honestly the reason I haven’t been posting in the last year or so as much as I used to.”
The star revealed that she is finding it hard to “love herself” despite the confidence she seemingly displays on social media in body positive posts, which won fans for her unfiltered and unapologetic outlook.
Rexha has never been shy about calling out critics of her body, as she captioned in an Instagram post last year. “As much as I tried to be that skinny pop-star, like the ones I grew up watching or see now, I can’t seem to do it in a way that feels natural or healthy,” she wrote.
“I like to eat. I workout. I drink water. I do my best. I follow the rhythm of my body. Even though it gets hard sometimes I show my body love. #EveryBodyIsBeautiful.”
Rexha’s followers were quick to show support for the singer in the comments section of her video, prompting her to post a video of herself in a bikini that had “been sitting in my drafts from vacay. Just forcing myself to post it.”
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